Thursday, June 20, 2013

Charli Rose ......the start

May 24,2013-
Went to bed after noticing a small red bleed while going to the bathroom. Told Ben and decided that I would keep an eye on it through the night.

May 25,2013-
Went to the bathroom when I woke up and was having more red bleeding. Called my doctor's office and was told to go to the ER. Spent May 25-27th at Children's Hospital on the Labor and Delivery floor. Got two shots off steroids to help strengthen Charli's lungs......just in case. Sent home on modified bed rest.

June 1,2013-
Worked 4 hours to tie up loose ends until I would return to work after Charli was born. Thought that would be November. Was 26 weeks 3 days pregnant.

June 2, 2013-
Went back to ER with bleeding. Admitted.

June 5, 2013-
First real red bleed. Smaller one. 24 hour monitoring off baby and not able to eat or drink just in case. Bleeding stopped two hours later. Found out I would be staying in the hospital for the next ten weeks until Charli Rose was born via c section at 37 weeks. 27 weeks today.

June 6. 2013-
Another red bleed. Bigger than the last. Stopped an hour later. Again 24 hour baby monitoring and no food or drink just in case. Got a pic line.

June 7, 2013-
Red bleed. Scarier than the last two. Another 24 hours of monitoring and no food or drink. Anxiety level at that point was through the roof.  Had a blood transfusion.

June 8, 2013-
Bleed at 11am. Called Ben and told him to take Carter to his last soccer game that was at 1pm. Was tired of interrupting the boys lives. This bleed was over within an hour. Brief sigh of relief. 5:30pm I skyped with Oliver and he was sad. I asked him and Ben to come to the hospital to cuddle with me and watch a movie before visiting hours ended at 8pm. 6pm I started to bleed. Called Ben at 6:17pm and told him that this was a bad bleed and I was about to call the nurse. Told him to hang tight with Oliver.  Nurse came in and saw the amount of bleeding I was having (was like a waterfall) and got me on the baby monitor. Baby looked fantastic, like she always had through all these bleeds. Within minutes there were ten people in my room and then I heard the words........"We have to deliver." Already hysterical, I lost it. The doctor called Ben. All I remember is yelling "It's too soon!" over and over. And then I was put to sleep. Charli Rose was born at 6:41pm. 2lbs 10oz 14.5 inches long.

June 9, 2013-
I woke up terrified at 3am. My mind was slowly waking up but I couldn't move my body or speak. I still had a breathing tube and I was in excruciating pain. I was throwing up and having panic attacks that I couldn't breathe. When they finally removed that tube after two hours of torture, all I could do was whisper. I tried to make sense of what was happening or had happened. Over the next couple hours I learned of what the night before had consisted of. I was told that my baby girl was doing well and was in the NICU. The second I could talk I called Ben. All I wanted to do was see him. I learned I was in surgery for 4-5 hours the night before. After they closed me up after the c section and tubal ligation, the pushed on my stomach to check my uterus. I started to hemorrhage. They could not stop the bleeding. It was not safe to open me back up. Eventually they did an embelazation that cut off the blood supply from my heart to my uterus. I lost 3 liters of blood and had 5 transfusions. Finally saw Ben and pictures of my baby girl.
Charli Rose Grassel
 

I didn't get to see my precious baby girl until 10pm that evening. I pumped and was able to get a small amount of milk for her. It was excruciating getting in the wheel chair for the ride down to the NICU. They let us hold her. She was doing well at this point. Only getting some oxygen but was breathing on her own. Missy and Tracy came to see me and got to meet her. Mike and Julie got to meet her. Mary and both Carter and Oliver got to meet her this day.

We were so in love with this tiny beautiful baby girl. We were scared to death of the future. But we had that time of ignorant bliss. We could not believe that she was doing so well after being born so early. We were told she would be in the hospital most likely until her due date. She needed to be able to eat on her own, breath on her own, and be strong enough to sit in the car seat. We welcomed the challenge.

Never once thought we would only have 4 days with our girl.

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